:: Tuesday, April 06, 2004 ::

MIN QALBI

salamz,

how should i start ek? there's something jumbling in my heart to write about + i just don't know where to start...

let just starts with aufa's development hehheheh (again...!!!??)

alhamdulillah, yesterday (genap 3 bulan) i brought her to GP (General Practicioner) 4 her 2nd immunisation; it's the same type of jap as the last one, last month. yupp, she got it 4 twice now. fuh, it was really exhausted to bring her pushchair up + down the stairs of our house as it was ONLY me who's in the house at that particular moment (not including aufa-lah) habis bebarang Pak Abu (our landlord who lives downstairs) kena bulldozed dek pushchair aufa + tangisan ummi-is-not-around aufa made the whole house was like in a riot situation muaheheheheh

finally, after a long struggle... i was success to stroll the pushchair ahead to GP... with the version of Gaban Woman since we were kind of late 4 the 1030 am appointment. alhamdulillah, kali ni aufa kurang m'gegarkan bilik nurse yg kalau dia bijak, mesti dah diketuk2nya kepala nurse tu (read: archive March `04)

eheh, belum sempat nurse tu gi ambik bebarang nak 'cucuk' aufa, aufa dah buat muka cebek dia kat ummi dia, m'buatkan ummi dia mula rasa risau dan, alhamdulillah... aufa mmg jadi brave girl smlm, sbb aufa nangis sekejap jer (mcm dia control nak nangis). makes me even noding my head in my heart (huh? cam mana tu?) saying that she's really my brave girl hhmmm, rasa mungkin sbb smlm kut... duklah cakap2 kat dia...

ummi: aufa, esok aufa kena inject tau... kat sini satu, sini satu (sambil tunjuk dua2 belah peha dia) so, nanti aufa jgn nangis ok? anak ummi kan kuat...

aufa: eeekkk... oookkkkk... eeekkkk... (senyum) (translate: okessssss! ---> agaknyalah...)

ummi: heheheheheh

hmmm, rasanya baby ni kan dia cepat tangkap apa yg kita cakap kat dia kan? hmmm, rasanya, mungkin kut... waallahua`lam...

alhamdulillah, b'banding ngan bulan lepas, aufa lebih 'immuned'. badan dia x panas, m'ragam pun kurang but still i give her half teaspoon of paracetamol every 6 hrs. bila renung2 balik, ada hikmah s'bnrnya Allah nak tunjukkan situasi camtu...

diibaratkan seorang pelayar samudera yg pertama kali b'layar. tiba2, kapal layarnya habis dimakan ombak. maka, tinggallah dia t'dampar di lautan m'nanti bantuan tiba.
tapi,
bila si pelayar tu tadi kembali b'layar 4 the 2nd time, he'll know what to expect + will prepare himself for any circumstances to come. dia akan jadi seorang pelayar samudera yg > b'sedia + kapal layarnya kan dipenuhi dgn k'perluan yg mantap menanti segala ombak badai yg m'datang.
and,
as 4 aufa, she's not crying much then, bcoz she knew what to expect. she prepared herself to be > brave than before coz she knows that there's someone to support her back...

hmmm, kalau budak kecik pun tahu camtu, apatah lagi bg kita yg... tua-bangka nih (sorry to say...)

mcm tu jugak bg situasi kita sbg hamba Allah di muka bumi ni. adakalanya kita cepat b'keluh kesah acapkali ditimpa pelbagai dugaan yg m'datang. kita kan mula rasa lemah, mula rasa goyah + goyang. sedangkan, setiap dugaan yg Allah timpakan pd kita s'bnrnya, utk meng'immune'kan diri kita supaya m'jadi seorang yg > sabar + tabah + kuat dan mantap pd hari2 muka. Allah tak uji hamba2Nya tanpa s'barang sebab. even, kita patut rasa syukur sbb Allah kurniakan kita dgn dugaan2 ni. sekurang2nya kita tahu yg kita masih b'ada di dalam pemerhatian Dia...

hhmm, that is what i told myself for about maybe past 12-15 years ago until now. whenever i felt like there's no one to share my feelings about, i just remember that Allah is always there 4 me; to hear my prays, to hear my emotions, to hear my agony... although in my tears... there He will be...

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