:: Tuesday, January 13, 2009 ::

♥ New Routine ♥

This week, the kids + I have started a new routine. Aufa will be at her school until 5.30pm- joining the B4 T [the after school] Club + Amsyar will be in the Sure Start Nursery from morning till 6pm. The decision was made after a thorough discussion with the hubby on deciding what's the best for the kids + the Ummi. Me of course, having this mixed feelings of 'have to' let the kids being cared by someone else during the all day long. I felt a BIG guilt yesterday after receiving call from Aufa's teacher saying that, she was upset during the first few hours at the club. Amsyar too, when not even till 1/2 an hour I left him with his carer [to be in the other room], he cried for Ummi. The nursery manager, Anne told me that, it's going to be tough for him as he is going to be in the nursery all day long. Oh, my.. and at the split of seconds, I felt.. what am I doing? This is tough. Not even for Aufa + Amsyar, but for me especially.

I'll be very emotional when it comes to the kids. I even had a miserable evening yesterday after receiving call from Mrs Johnson- Aufa's B4 T Club teacher saying that Aufa was reluctant to take off her coat + joining the club + was waiting for me as if that, she thinks I was going to fetch her in minutes. Mrs Johnson did pass the phone to Aufa, and Aufa told me that, ".. I want to go home, Ummi..". And at the very seconds I thought, that's enough! I'm going to take her home. But, Mrs Johnson said that she will do the best that she can, to calm her down + will let me know if things get worsen. Alhamdulillah, an hour later.. Mrs Johnson called me saying that Aufa was settling well. She finally took off her coat + joining the other kids in the club. For what that did happened earlier, I wouldn't even can imagine that she was SO babbly storying about what she did in the club when I came + fetched her with sleepy Amsyar in the stroller at 5.30pm yesterday.

Alhamdulillah.. I was SOO relieved then.

Today, I will be sending Amsyar to the nursery for 1 hour, whilst I will be in the other room at the nursery. Will see how it goes.. I really hope that he's going to settle down very soon. The Sure Start's nursery childminder are very friendly + loving to the kids- that lessen my worries. They have a very good monitoring system. I'll story this further later, insya Allah..

I really hope that Allah will ease this journey for us. It is really a tough one, but that's what makes me going, insya Allah..

Till then..

;)

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